Mindfucked #1: make a willpower check
About 6 years ago I decided to run a little experiment on myself: I decided to see what it would be like to become a smoker. And then, in an impressive display of self-control and willpower, I would quit.
It would be an experiment of self-discovery and a test of willpower. Thinking about it now, I think I thought it was going to be some sort of feat of mental strength, an ordeal that would lead to a greater appreciation for my mind-over-matter abilities.
Well … what actually happened is that I mindfucked myself into a wee bit of a smoking addiction. I really do think it’s only a wee addiction; I can go days without having a smoke … but often times I choose not to - not to go days without smoking I mean. But I’m guessing that’s what addiction is all about - you think you can do without but you often choose not to. Hmmm … maybe there’s a lil’ bit of self discovery in this experiment after all.
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